[info]zerbelho

Part and parcel of life

IT TAKES ONE TO KNOW ANOTHER
[info]zerbelho
January 27th, 2020
 Zerbel Ho Siew Hui
Judging is, in a way, projecting insecurities you have about yourself onto someone else. why judge if you're secure?

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How do we reverse the chemistry?
[info]zerbelho
November 27th, 23:31
Is there someone you know, you're loving them so but taking them all for granted? You may lose them one day. Someone takes them away and they dont hear the words you long to say.
Couldnt keep this love alive.
[info]zerbelho
November 26th, 23:20
You don’t just automatically love someone. you have to slowly learn to trust, then you start believing them. You want to be with them more to the point where you’re jealous of anyone who tries to be with that person. Then it gets you mad but you get past it, you can’t be jealous anymore. You can’t because you have this undying confidence that this person will never leave you, they will never betray you, and that they would never pick someone else over you, that you’re irreplaceable. That’s when the confidence hits you, that you really do love each other and it’s unbreakable.

So, can you give me this undying confidence that you will never leave me, will never betray me, and that you would never pick someone else over me, that i'm irreplaceable?
































Relationships are not about whom you've known the longest , or who cared first , or who cared best. It's all about who came and never left .

you're very special to me yet you know nothing
[info]zerbelho
November 19th, 0:32
Okay, my livejournal is like so dead for so many months?! Been busy with work nowadays.
Well, recent favourite hangout place is Sabai :)
Didnt like the place initially. But eventually, it's something interesting:) So many pictures to upload. Guess i upload a few will do.
Since all pictures are in my facebook alr! HAHA.
















SABAI SABAI :)






SPEED LEGEND





Anger and rudeness are a weak persons' false show of strength but politeness and cool mind reflects dignity and strength of a strong person.
Mistakes are doorways to discovery
[info]zerbelho
October 5th, 20:30
Yeah. I love my job more and more and more and more! :)
In 2 weeks, i closed 3 deals. Shawn said it's actually good enough. But, i have high expectation for myself.
And seeing him bring home 4k++++ this month, just by commision, i'm a little envy. Therefore, i'm trying to learn more, and pick up more. Be like him :)
Well, supposed to get my pay yesterday. But i guess they forgotten all about me, and didnt issue me my cheque. But Gary (Operation Manage in SNAPZ) is checking it for me :)
The day before, went to Bukit Timah's old Turf club for buffet, with another manager, Gary, his GF Eyvonne and Shawn. Than cabbed home.
Yesterday after work, went over Serangoon North for Sushi Tei with the same people. Didnt eat much, as i dont really like Japanese food =/
After eating, cabbed to West Coast with Shawn for L4D with 2 of his friends! FINALLY, after sooo many months, i got to L4D again:)
After L4D-ing for around an hour, Shawn suggested to catch a movie at Cine. So his friends went off, and the both of us cabbed over to Cine for 'Funny people'. Oh well, i cant rate the movie. I dont even know if it's nice or not. Because i was already deep asleep before the show even started! And i woke up 10mins before the show end -.- How nice, you tell me!? After movie, cabbed home together. He stays near me so we always meet up for work together as well :)
Good to have a senior that stays near me! Anytime can meet him for some discussion over work^^
Yeah, shall upload some ovedue and new pictures since i'm running out of words.
 

[i didnt wanna insult you, nor criticise you. I don't mean it. Really. But i'm seriously annoyed by the way how you take things in hand, and not sparing a thought for me, and my feelings. Look back! How i once guide you along your path, teach you, and help you! Instead of you only looking at the bad side of me! If this is what i deserve for sacrificing so much for you in the past. Than there's nothing i could say, but Thank you. You may leave my life now.]


 
Out of the fullness of the heart, the mouth speaks.
Be nice to people on your way up because you might meet 'em on your way down.
[info]zerbelho
September 28th, 21:16


Hi Earthling! :)
My livejournal is so dead!
Anyway, after working in Mary Chia for 3 days, i left. Work load so tiring, location not right, neither is the pay right!
But luckily just 2 days after i left them, i was short listed for an interview as a recept in a photo studio in Clarke Quay. But instead of asking me to be the recept, the asked if i'm interested in being a image consultant which pay would be higher. Of cos i agreed.
Have been working there for a week. Really enjoy it, and love my job:)
Having my off day on every Monday. Which means, no clubbing for me on weekends, nor zoo :(
But i do look forward to every working day! The consultants, make up artist, photographers, and even managers there are fun to hang out with.
Oh well, at least there's something for my time to pass faster, not getting affected by personal stuff, not even the slightest bit, and forget about everything! :)
And i finally took the courage to leave everything behind, and get him out of my life. But he simply wouldnt leave me alone, trying to find the little bits of fault here and there.
I guess you had already move on with your life, and got use to it without me. So please allow me have a peaceful one too. Appreciated :)
And one of the consultant, Shawn stay near me too. We'll cab to work together every weekends. As we gotta reach the studio by 9am for meeting :(
This is partly one of the reason why no clubbing on weekends. But still, I LOVE MY JOB OKAY! :)
There's nothing much to talk about =/
Other than i'm proud of myself being able to refrain from falling into his trap again. Seriously, i dont know what he wants. He choosed to leave, but why is he still trying so hard to lead me on now? But i had alr turned away. A little ruthless, but no choice. Being force to.
All the things you did to me just make me hate you alot. Not even the slightest love anymore.
Hiding me in the dark, not allowing your friends to know we are actually hanging out, and me staying over your place, and stuffs like that.
I guess you're just afraid it might affect your life and those girls you're flirting with right now. I can totally understand. But of cos, i wouldnt be that dumb to let you lead me on any longer. I dont wanna cling on neither.
Good luck to you, and me:)


 

You may be deceived if you trust too much, but you will live in torment if you do not trust enough.


 

Parting is such a sweet sorrow.
[info]zerbelho
September 17th, 0:23

Super shag, super tired! :(
Slept for like only 2hrs ytd, and went for my interview.
Finally after so long, i made the effort down for an interview! And guess what!? Surprisingly, i wasnt anxious, and totally calm and chatted with the 2 interviewers like my own friends! HAHA! After interview, went to TPY and met up with Jason for lunch, than head to town. An hour later. They called and told me i'm short listed! HOW NICE!? :)
They wanted me to start work like immediately, tomorrow?! Which i'm yet ready for it. So they make me go down to office to sign some stuff tomorrow, and start work on Friday :)
Met up with my babies (Clair, Huiling and Qin) at around 530pm, and Jason head off to work.
Went to do some shopping, and bought hair conditioner and eye make up remover from Body Shop. Got myself a black lace dress from Topshop too! Awww! Super love it! I guess i'm starting to fall for Topshop's apparels :)
Huiling met up with one of her colleague, Harrison, for smoke. And surprisingly, that fellow know me. He reconigse me as Jia Hao's friend and Raymond's gf. But corrected him, it's an EX :) He know me during a DXO party last year. HAHA!
Aftermath, trained home together with Huiling, as her sweet boyfriend stay just 2-3 blocks away from me, and she's going over to look for him tonight. Awwww, how sweet!  :)
Reached home and Jaymen called. Asking me down to 12th Element. But well, my gfs are already home. And it's gonna be super awakard if i go down myself to join him and his friends, so i'm staying home.
After hanging up his call, came Guo Hao's call. Fcuking Moron i swear! He laughed at me for going back to R, and landed up in such a state now. WTH! Saddist! Whatever okay! It's already over. Just continue :)
Anyway, my working schedule and timing is really hardcore! 1 week 6days work, 11am to 9pm. And if i doesnt have any schedule in the outlets, i'll have to go back to office for paper work! How am i suppose to cope with all this? :(
I wanna have Huiling's life so badly. Sucha loving and stable bf. And busy working all day long. Dont have to worry about anything. So carefree! Okay, i have already made plans for the future. Concentrate on my work, and quickly save up for my Bangkok's shopping trip :)
Boyfriend? Let nature take it course. And, and, and, Clarissa! The scratches that you left on my arm, is still damn painful :(
My legs are hurting too! Due to that pair of new, really high heels! Alright, will upload pictures when i have the time to. I'm really exhausted! I already feel the stress for my job :(
Raymond is betting with me that i cant pull through 2 months. HEY! I'll prove you wrong okay! I'm gonna beat that! :)
Oh well, have been repeating to the babes about wanting a true love so badly right now over and over again. They're finding me more and more disturbing each day! Haha! But i know, they love me for who i am though :)
I'm seriously influenced by Qin. Have a thing for NS guys. Oh well, at least they're more faithful and trustworthy than those guys out there in the world? I dont know. Correct me if i'm wrong.
Whatever it is, i'm not looking backward. I'm hoping for a better person to come into my life ahead! :)
Gonna turn in, Goodnight ♥


Hey YOU! YOU! YOU! Yes, YOU! Give up on me. I have no feelings for you.
Not even a single bit! You're not the one i'd wanna grow old with. Neither will you be the one i wanna spend my life with.
Dont waste your time. I'll never never fall for you! Because if you cant let me have patience in you, you cant have my heart.
And you totally have got no confidence in yourself, how do you expect me to have it in you too?!



♥ Am hoping to find a soul mate to walk this road together.
When the heart is full, the tongue will speak.
[info]zerbelho
September 16th, 1:46
I strongly agree this proverb now: Lend your money and lose your friend.
I'm not gonna comment much, neither am i gonna stoop to his level. Just some useless beggar. By all that he's doing right now, just show what a sore loser he is :) I dont know how to put it in words. But afterall, you are just ashame of yourself owning me money, and trying to distract away those attention from your shame, so you're doing all this childish act now. It's somehow like, the pot calling the kettle black? I dont know. You know it better than i do :)Surprisingly, those stories you make up, failed to hurt me a single bit! But, you can try harder :)And fyi, i'm just flaunting what i have, and proud of. Well, they can see, but they cant touch. Aint like some cheapo around you! :) I'm not gonna mention names, i know they're innocent in this. Unlike you! And please get some of your friends to mind their p's and q's. Well, if my face is what you call 'buang', how about yours? Learn to save up for your nose job please. You need it badly. Instead of saving up for weeks, or perhaps months, for just a YSL tee :) Photoshop? How do you use that? I have no idea. I mean, seriously! Your friends uses that, didnt they? Well, get them to teach you. Because in the meantime of saving up for a nose job which you need it badly, you may wanna try using photoshop to do something about it first. Just grow up, will you? I couldnt believe you will actually behave this way till that evening! BOOO!




Oh yea, having an interview afterwards at Mary Chia :)
Mark drove and came over AMK to fetch me to town yesterday. Met up with Dave and Qin there.
Bought a pair of really HIGH heels, and a bag which i totally love it hell lot, for now! HAHA!
Bump into Clair and her baby boy outside Far East, than went over ION to look for Huiling. Did some catching up with her till 3am! And cabbed home.
Envy her life now, seriously! She took number from this NS guy from some pub, and eventually, they got together. Now they have been together for like 7months!? Awww. Can it get any sweeter than this? And the best part is, her boyfriend trust her so much, that he wouldnt keep calling and hang around on the phone for long when she's out with us in the wee hours. Okay, i swore last night that if i get a boyfriend like her, i'll stable down and really behave myself. And hey girls! I MEAN IT OKAY!?
Oh, and i miss zoo :(
Went there just last Saturday, Really nice seeing all those animals! ^^
Okay, i gotta go to bed, just in case i cant wake up afterwards for my interview! Wish me luck! :)
I WANT A LG GD900 CRSTAL PHONE SO BADLY :(


Over due photos!












































 

When you find a man who remembers your silly little favorites of random things - that’s the one you hold on to.

Let pride go afore, shame will follow after.


 
To whoever it may concern :)
[info]zerbelho
September 13th, 4:25
you're only a crude uneducated dreg of society with a hollow and shallow mind.
Empty vessels make the most noise
[info]zerbelho
September 10th, 19:36
Butterfact ytd. And it totally suck!
Still love Powerhouse and Rebel the most :)
Okay, i'm gng out now.
Kinda upset over some stuff.
Plus, plus some annoying beggar around me! ewww.
Act smart, as if they know me so well.
Continue to beg for food, dont distub my life pls.









































 

Living without you make me realised how much you mean to me.
One step forward and two steps back.
[info]zerbelho
September 4th, 2:04
Having severe headache and flu :(
Raymond just came up and collect Shixiong's hoodie, cum pass me my birthcert back.
After that, ordered Mac. Had happy meals ^^
Well, sadly i'm eating alone. I miss those days eating Mcspicy, fillet-o-fish with extra tar tar sauce, and 20pcs nuggets with you.
Silly me.
Chatted with Jason before he went to bed. I guess he's really tired. Didnt get to sleep much these few days.
Look at the funny pictures below! We went to Iluma's arcade and caught it by just 3 tokens!! 
So one for him, and one for me :)



 



 
Sometimes When A Woman Ignores You, That's The Time She Wants You The Most.
 
What doesnt kill me, can only make me stronger.
[info]zerbelho
September 3rd, 17:19
Cos we lost it all. No point looking back.
Well, have been out with Qin and Ruth/Reina this few days. Qin is really nice.
Meet me right after school just for dinner, and we'll chill around.
Jason joined us as well.
And we do enjoy outing with him. Story-telling, BEST!
haha! He shares all his working experience with us as he's a policeman.
His story are really interesting. Died bodies, Arm robbery, theives, drugs abuser, and many many things.
Owells, and i managed to physco Qin and Ruth to cut down on clubbing and visit nature resorts frequently!
HAHA! We're going to the Zoo this Saturday, and Night Safari next Saturday.
Probably with Irving, Gabriel, Ross and Jason joining us ^^
Provided Irving, Gabriel and Ross book out on Friday. So we can go on Saturday morning.
Well, photos for these few days :)
 
-People come, and people go. Only truthful and good ones stay.
I wouldnt make people stay with me. I'll let them decide, so i can see who my good friends are, and who arent.








































 
Is this the end of the moment?
Or just a beautiful unfolding, of a love that will never be?
Sore eyes :(
[info]zerbelho
August 27th, 20:31


don’t lie, though you do it often.
and when someone matters, tell them the truth.
just like the way you should only smile when it’s needed.
don’t overuse things, because things will easily lose their meaning that way.

touch my heart
[info]zerbelho
August 27th, 1:25
I am very very very lazy to type. Totally shag. Uneducated, down syndrome and dumb people are pissing me off these few days. FML!






























 
Joanna Goh
[info]zerbelho
August 25th, 17:34

Pretty people dont have to do so much to their pictures!
Natural, you see? 
So why do you have to photoshop/edit a little here and there? 
Aiyo, you too, just accept the FACT that you were NEVER born pretty! :)


ps: Take extra care of your mouth! Bcos mouth that resemble a camel's, is hard to find these days!  HAHAHA!!
JOANNA GOH! Read this please!
[info]zerbelho
August 25th, 5:51

I'm directly telling you this now! (bcos i know somehow, you will step into my lj)
'THE FAT GIRL YOU ONCE LOVED!'  sounds familiar isnt it? :)
awwww! This sort of cowardly act is taught by your mum?
She taught you to only gossip at the back and said nothing infront? Did she?
Or isit just YOU trying to be a DOG, acting real brave at my back?
I'm fat, and how about you?! You're not any better! Mind your grooming, and sense of fashion!
That CHEAPSKATE top, skirt, and hot pants of yours! IT'S SQUEEZING YOUR FLABBY FATS FROM ARMS, THIGHS, AND TUMMY OUT!
Total turn off!
And simple, NO BREAST, NOTHING TO REVEAL, DONT WEAR YOUR CLOTHS LIKE THAT! God, save her.
I cant believe you're that POOR to the extend of wearing table cloths on your body! (Sorry, if it's actually apparels. Bcos it look so dirty and cheap that makes me think that it's some table cloths)
And one thing i need you to keep in mind, my dear girl :)
I'm fat (as you said), but i manage to get guys that treat me for real! Whole heartedly. No sex, no nothing :)
And how about you? By judging that i'm fat, i'm ugly and whatsoever, means you're trying to say you look better than me? :)
Slim? Sexy? Hot? Pretty? Cute? Sweet? Everything nice huh? Am i right to say that?
Yor skin cant get any thicker, young girl :)
Okay, whatever it is that makes you happy. But why, you seems to be so PERFECT but all guys just wanna go for that loose hole of yours, and that mouth? None treated you right, truthfully and wholeheartedly? But instead, sucha ugly, fat, gross, disgustine girl (like what you describe) have got so many suitors? Have you ever thought of why guys leave you one after another? God isnt being fair, isnt he? :(
Young lady, i'm not blaming you much bcos afterall you're just too young to get the fact right.
I'm here vending my anger about you cant get the facts right into that peaaaa brainnn of yours, not trying to stoop to your level.
Get this clear! So please maintain that mouth of yours! It totally resembles a camel's.
Though your age isnt far from me, but Maturity doesnt come with age, it comes with awareness, experience and knowledge!
And yea, your very 1st impression of me is judged by my photos, didnt you? :)
the pictures are nice aren't they?well whether you like them anot. i wont give a damn. cause i like them so much. i have lotsa picture like this and i want to post them all so your eyes will be filled with memories about me. i really want to upload alot of pictures just for you and little by little you'll get pissed and one day you'll freak out and doze off out of anger. LOL
eh you know i never met someone like you, believe me you're very rare individual. i never met such a person who lacks of manner, discipline, and like what ***** said disrespectful, rude and repulsive. i thought there's no such person living in this vast universe with that kind of attitude until you came.and i said to myself oh this kind of person actually exist! i totally agree with this saying "Moral indignation is jealousy with a halo"
And well if you don't like me no one's forcing you to do so. you don't need to like me,but don't act as if you know me very well. And you're unreasonable to hate me especially we dont know each other. you don't know me i dont know you. make sense right? don't be lame.don't like what i preach? well exit is the way please.

Please do some self reflection.
And always remember this, It takes one to know another. You gotta be one to know me :)

Never tell the truth to people who are not worthy of it.
[info]zerbelho
August 21st, 16:18

Baby, you overused the word 'sorry'.

Everything came crashing down.
Nobody can understands how i feel right now. F, F, B, and M are things that are running through my mind now.
I have been bottling all up. Always pretending nothing's wrong, everything's fine. And now, things are not getting any better, but worst.
I'm on the verge of breaking down.
I need HELP please :(
[info]zerbelho
August 18th, 5:48

Hi people, I'm looking for this Black Dress,  Gold Satin Dress and Brown Biker Jacket real badly :(
If you're selling it, or know where can i get it, please leave me a comment. Your help will be much much much appreciated!!
Thank you.





 

once bitten, twice shy.
[info]zerbelho
August 11th, 23:20



























































 



I'm just a cushion for you to fall back on.
DUMB
[info]zerbelho
August 8th, 18:00

Again. You dissapointed me badly.
There's nothing much i can say now.
You test my patience again, and again.
You mess things up. Not handling things well.
I guess it's time we leave each other alone, again.
We made a wrong move, a wrong decision.


In your eyes, You see others, You feel others, You believe in others, but not me.
I was never right.
Blames are always at my side.
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